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Thank you .. I haven’t used tumblr in about a year and getting this message has sparked me to start using it again :) thank you

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Best friend away for the weekend = Bored #selfies #bored (Taken with Instagram)

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Thank you so much!!! i love your blog too :)

When you screw something up so bad all you feel like doing is dying and nothing can fix the mistake

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So i have this ex boyfriend who i was completely in love with we were together almost 2 years and i don’t know what happened. I was young i wanted to party and i got confused and broke up with him. its been over a year since we broke up and i just recently cause up with him for the first time and everything felt the same as it had when we had been together. so now I’m confused over wether or not i just got cold feet for a little while and my feelings were always there i just was to young to understand or wether I’m just feeling lonely now and seeing him has brought back memories of some really good times. so we have been talking a lot about how we both feel and well he and i are both confused about where this is headed but he said he doesn’t want a relationship right now. i don’t know wether he means he doesn’t want a relationship right now or a relationship with me right now. just tonight we were talking and he said ‘if id didn’t work out the first time why would it be any different again? maybe we are too different. maybe it wasn’t meant to be.and who is to say you wouldn’t get cold feet again or maybe i might get over you the second time round. I’m just not sure, i just get a bad feeling and i don’t know why.’ I feel devastated because well there have been a number of factors that have brought me to the realisation that last year was me being young and stupid. i didn’t know how to read myself i was scared of the future without being young first i was and still kind of am scared about the thought of spending the REST of your life with someone. Im not scared of commitment its just such a long time and i want to get it right and i never thought that i would have found a person that could be a top candidate so young. so before we had the conversation tonight i had decided to write him a letter and video me playing lego house- ed sheeran and white flag- dido. this is my letter so far:

So I have no idea how to talk to you about anything these days. I have so much I want to say yet I don’t feel like I can tell you. I think I’m afraid that if tell you I will loose you all over again and I don’t think I can handle that. I don’t think we are on the same page with what is going on between us because I’m too chicken to tell you how I really feel

To start with I am so confused I can’t tell why I still have these really strong feelings for you, am I just feeling lonely and you turned up and all of the old memories felt good or did I made a huge mistake and just had cold feet because I was scared. Yes I am scared of the future and yes I am scared of growing up. I am still trying to figure out exactly what I want, but every time I see you nothing changes I still feel the way I did and it confuses me.

I feel as though I destroyed everything we had and I completely ruined any hope of you trusting me completely. You were and still are my best friend, you know as much about me as my parents do if not more in some aspects. You were the person I could always count on and confide in, you were always there, and I didn’t realize I lost my best friend when I pushed you away.

I am not trying to make excuses for my actions but I did everything because I was trying to be honest. I thought I understood myself but now I’m second guessing whether I actually do know how to understand my feelings which makes this time even more difficult for me. I have these constant feelings of regret, I’ve never truly regretted anything in my entire life till now. Life is to short for regret. But this time I can’t shake it.

One factor that has played a rather large role in me figuring out where my heart and head are at is jealousy. Why would I feel jealous of your friendship with *insert girls name* if I didn’t want that (again) with you? I don’t have a problem with her or your friendship I’m honestly just trying to figure myself out. Why do I constantly want to talk to you? Why do I think about you constantly? Why do I constantly beat myself up over my actions? I have never been this caught up on someone before.

I honestly have missed you. I have missed everything about you. I’ve missed YOU. I haven’t wanted to say anything because I’ve been too afraid that you won’t / don’t feel the same, but if I don’t tell you then well I won’t get any where. I know you don’t want a relationship right now but I’d much rather have this off my chest then let it all mull inside me and eat me from the inside out not knowing. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m here if you want me.

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it’s yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.”

If you don’t just know I will always have a spot in my heart for you, nothing will ever change that.

But now I’m a little upset because i don’t think he will ever want me again. I think I’ve screwed it up to the point of no return and well, my whole world is crumbling around me now. it was hard enough to let go the first time. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

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Love, Strength & Courage

Goodnight instagram #goodnight #timeforbed #peteralexander...

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Yes I did this #awkward #whoops #Christmas #jewish

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love your blawwg and ur so pretty

Best friend away for the weekend = Bored #selfies #bored (Taken...

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